Alyssa's ramblings...

A love / hate relationship.

My husband and I got our tax refunds!!! They were deposited into my account yesterday, less than a week after they were lodged! I’m excited, because we’ve almost paid off the credit card, and we now have money for tomorrow’s ultrasound, and I was also able to get our loan payments up to date. It’s such a relief. So I am extremely happy today.

Completely differs from my mood last night, when I was angry at my husband for wanting to go to sleep instead of watching Grey’s Anatomy with me (my new favourite show).  Yes, I know. How selfish of him. God forbid my husband may have actually been tired! No way. It’s all about me. He should have been thinking about my whims, not his wellbeing. :o) So kidding. But I blame my irrational behaviour on pregnancy hormones. It’s nice to have an excuse for those things! What will I do after the baby’s born??? I won’t have anything on which to blame my irrationality. D’oh.

I had time off work last Friday and yesterday. I was sick, in a cold/flu-like manner. It was horrible (still kind of is, but I’m getting better). So yesterday afternoon I was dreading coming to work today. I was all like “I HATE my job!” And today, when I realised we got our tax refunds, I was all like “I LOVE my job!” I actually said that one out loud, but I don’t think anyone heard me (praise the Lord). Crazy, crazy times. My moods are so up-and-down, and all over the place. I think my real feelings about my job are closer to the first statement, but not quite so severe. I mean, I can handle working here for another four months. I think. But after that, I will be truly devastated if I have to come back and work for three days a week like we originally planned. I’m okay with the childcare thing now, but it’s just my job that infuriates me. We think we may be able to work it out, so hopefully I can be a housewife & mum.

I felt the baby move quite hugely this morning! I was lying in bed, and felt some light thumping from inside my tummy. I’m hesitant to call it kicking until I feel it again (I was just waking up at the time), but it was so cool!

posted by Alyssa @ 11:13 AM